In wilderness..

Laura Braun   Tue Jul 29, 2008 11:46 am GMT
Have you ever been in wilderness. Wherever your rules, your language is nothing. You just don't have a link. So why dream to go to english speaking country. Wherever you turn your face you are a stranger aren't you. You try to live somehow. You try to learn language, you try to find the conception of the culture, you try to understand others before they try to understand you. Then one day you cut it off. If so... What is the profit of whole of that? Your experiance? The fact that you were there. The fact that you've got to know them. OOOpsss. Why worship the foreign country? Why indeed? Are people there better than you? Or you just try to be like them. I just want to keep my indentity. The fact that I'm ME. I"M BORN HERE, was there, but me, myself and I - I'm just proud of what I'm and I will not be other me. One day I've got the place and here am I. At home. Someone said Home is the place where you belong. Do I have two hearts , two brains, two me. One me which is me, the other me which is back again me. Where I have to find out the links to live. The place where everyone is so polite, no curse words or the place where I have to meet the reality.
Guest   Tue Jul 29, 2008 12:15 pm GMT
Umm, where are you from, if I might ask?
Caspian   Tue Jul 29, 2008 12:21 pm GMT
I can see your point very well, it is an interesting question. Where are you from, is it uncommon that people speak your language? You speak English very well.
guest2   Tue Jul 29, 2008 2:29 pm GMT
<<The place where everyone is so polite, no curse words>>

Lucky you, if there is a place where everyone is so polite to you!

<<or the place where I have to meet the reality.>>

What do you mean by that?
Wintereis   Tue Jul 29, 2008 4:20 pm GMT
You should never let any external pressure intrude on who you are as a person Laura. You are correct in that. Moving to another country always has a tendency to force, or attempt to force, one to assimilate into that culture. It can be very difficult, I understand, to try and maintain yourself while trying to fit in. I think, if the name is any clue, Laura is German or Austrian (E.G. the infamous Eva Braun) . . . not that Laura is married to a fascist dictator.
Guest   Tue Jul 29, 2008 4:48 pm GMT
<<if the name is any clue, Laura is German or Austrian (E.G. the infamous Eva Braun) . . . not that Laura is married to a fascist dictator. >>

Perhaps "Laura Braun" is just a red herring. Perhaps he's really an aspiring CNC machinist from Bulgaria, Belarus, Belguim, Bolivia, or even Bhutan.
Wintereis   Tue Jul 29, 2008 5:19 pm GMT
That is why I said "IF the name is any clue".
Laura Braun   Wed Jul 30, 2008 6:05 am GMT
clue: Let me tell you the movie which I was watching several years ago. It was the Hours. Right depressing movie. I was watching the one of the main charachers Laura Braun. She was so disturbed by the outside world that she couldn't treasure real values in her life. I was crying for her fate, the impossibleness to love, the imposibleness to fight with demons in herself. Then I picked the name. But nothing conected with me , my self and I.
I wish to tell you about the wilderness, where I have been. All people was working during the day time. But I had my bicycle and during the daytime I was riding my bike until the end of my breath. I was so happy as noone, because I felt only a God above me and me. I didn't met nobody sometimes with miles... When you are in foreign contry sometimes is dificult to socialise, especially with people who are busy or doesn't seems to care about their neighbour at all.
"Even Bhutan phuuuu... forget about it. I'm proud to belong to the nation which I'm. '. Laura Braun is not the clue. It's an outside imporession of an inside world.
Guest   Wed Jul 30, 2008 1:47 pm GMT
It's quite difficult to socialize indeed, if you ride a bike all by yourself all day long.
Laura Braun   Wed Jul 30, 2008 2:12 pm GMT
That's one part of 'how is the best spend in foreign country'. The other time I was everything what others expected me to be. But indeed I discovered the greatest freedom ; nobody owns my soul and my body. I had my own free time for my self.
Guest   Wed Jul 30, 2008 2:31 pm GMT
Your first post is extremely cryptic. It seems like you are saying that you travelled to a foreign country (an English speaking one) and it wasn't what you expected to be? Or something along those lines.
Guest   Wed Jul 30, 2008 2:46 pm GMT
So, does God own your soul or is it yours?